Homecoming.

hey reader.
homecoming. where do i even start off. well. isnt homecoming supposed to be fun? well this year our homecoming sucks. okay so our dress up days are supposed to get us in the spirit. or so i think. well. this year we have the lamest days ever. monday was pj day. tuesday hat tie and sunglasses day. forreal. no.
and today was FAKE INJURY day. like honestly. whoo. lets pretend to be injured so we can get in the spirit for friday night. are you trying to tell us something? and then tomorrows like mike day. you dress up as your favorite sports star? whats the point of that. really. theyre so dumb. i could think of things way better to do. but no. we dont get a say in anything unless we're in student council. they should have us like get to vote from a certain number of dress up days. that would probably turn out so much better. but whatever. i dont even know if im going to the game. i want to. but i could go hang out with kaylaaa garcia. that would probably be waaay more fun. haha.
sorry football team. good luck though!
just thought i'd vent about how dumb our days are.

just a shadow

hey reader, i've decided to write. again. i have many thoughts on my mind. but now its my parents. and family.
i love my family to death. but my parents know how to get to me.
they expect me to be so much. because my sister got great grades. its bad for me to get grades any lower than her. like its that easy. they should open their eyes and see, that it actually doesnt come easily for me as it does my sister.
just recently in august she moved out to college. an hour away. so now theyre getting more leniant with me and what they expect from me. i give them everything i can but they just dont see it.
its like im living in the shadow of my sister. i dont know what to do.
my mom always chose my sister over me. she never said it. but she did.
like for instance, she would go to my sisters softball games instead of mine. she always had excuses though. and when i was at my sisters  softball game with her lastnight she started babbling to some stranger about my sister and how great she is at school and how shes going to be a nurse and all this great stuff.
and she never once, said a thing about me. how lovely would i feel. oh pretty great. thats just a few examples of what goes on with my family. it may not seem like much. but it gets to me. a lot. because of how frequent it is. its like they are expecting so much of me and im letting them down. i feel ashamed. but i do, honestly try my hardest. and i get good grades but not good enough for them. well.
thats all for today, sorry again.
thanks for readin
- Haley

you can't have sunshine without any rain/

hey, reader. i've never done one of these before so pardon me if i start babbling on.
but i'm going to talk about boys.
boys bother me. so much. because they can't just be nice. and everything girls need. they have to be stupid, little players. like seriously. either that or theyre perfect, and have a girlfriend.
I have bad luck with guys, you may not know. but i went through a tough few years with them
like last summer. boy oh boy. ill talk about that later. but this boy. that i have liked, since december. has seemed perfect to me. and he still does. but everyone has their flaws.
like this one, for instance. he's everything i need. buut. he likes two other girls. and everytime i see his profile. it has something to do with a girl writing on hsi wall or something. i know i have no right to even get mad at him because we're just a thing. but it really makes me mad to think about things like that. i seriously don't even know what to do with boys anymore. i give up:/
sorry for babbling like an idiot. its my first time ever. so thanks for reading this. haha
-Haley